Thursday, January 28, 2010

pst....ME WUV YOU!

My sister, Molly, who we refer to as 'Olly' around here, went back to college a week ago. Last night, after dinner and taking care of the dishes, as per our norm Madaline and I settled in on the floor to color or stack blocks or play with her finger puppets. (I know, I know......the riviting evening activites of a working mom). And, out of nowhere, Madaline asked me where Molly was. This puzzled me - because usually she inquires as to when her Daddy will be home and if he will be home before she goes to bed. She was adamant that Molly was going to be coming over to play. And, after several minutes of trying to explain that she was back to school and a pan of brownies in the oven (don't ask) - I think she had a handle on it.

And, even so, it got me thinking. Let's make Aunt Molly a little video, let her know that we are thinking of her and that we miss her. So, that's what we did.

Please excuse the graininess and the bad quality. I had to take it with my phone. Perhaps it is time to invest in a Flip? Especially since Aunt Olly is going to be Wandering Across the Pond next fall.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

'Happy Burf-Day Daddy!'

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes sayin' you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me if ever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
Old Mr. Webster could never define
What's being said between your heart and mine

Happy 38th Birthday Daddy!!! We love you!!

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(Lyric & Song used as text is Alison Krauss's When You Say Nothing At All)

Friday, January 22, 2010

Dreaming Courage

"take what you can from your dreams
Make them real as anything
It takes the work out of the courage"
— Dave Matthews Band

(We are all doing 'ok'. We are slowing working on finding our way to a new sense of normal as we start our journey forward. Many, many, many thanks to all of you who have kept us and my family in your thoughts and prayers for the last week. We truly do appreciate it.)

Friday, January 15, 2010

Quietly Numb

I am numb.

I don't even know what to say or how to say it.

We have had an unexpected death in our family. A VERY unexpected death.

The life partner of my grandmother through marriage, passed away in their home this morning. My family, both immediate and extended has been rocked to its core.

Their house is one house up from my house. I spend a LOT of my childhood in their home. I can not remember a family gathering, event or party without him. He was a part of the family before I was even born. I honored both of them at my wedding as if they were my grandparents by blood, not just marriage.

My heart aches and is heavy with sorrow. As soon as I can wrap my head around this...I will update more. My mind is swimming with words - but I can't bring myself to type them out or write them down. I am afraid that if I do, I will be acknowledging that is is real and has happened. I am not ready for that crush of emotion. Not now. Now yet.

Please, I hate to even ask, but, I would be grateful if you could keep keep my family in your thoughts. Please.

thank you.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

EYE see You!

Come Out, Come Out, Who ever you are!

(this is one of my favorite photo - Yes, it is MY eye, and YES, I took the photo. Though, I have been told that it is rather creepy. What do you think?)

I keep seeing that today is 'De-Lurking Day' all over blog land today. My reader was FULL of posts today about it. (YES...I am VERY behind on my reader - I hope you can all forgive me)

I actually took some time to visit some blogs that I read ALOT and never comment on and left some comments. If you get a chance, try it. It's really is rather liberating. It made me feel like I was no longer standing in the middle of the manicured bushes peeking through someone's living room curtains. It felt like I went up, rang the bell, and was invited to sit at the table for coffee & cookies. *yum*

So, with that, Please, PLEASE....take a moment...let me know your here. Even it is just to say Hi! Maybe let me know how you got here? How you found me? Maybe, even, what you think?

And, I will do my best in the next few days to visit each and everyone of you that leaves a comment.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Brrrr....COLD, but FUN!

Last week, I was, well, lets just say disappointed. I had planned three really great potential Wordless/Wordful Wednesday post. I was shocked with I discovered that the the memory card I had removed from the camera was not the card that had my photos on it. I blamed my husband for this. In retaliation, I called him out for putting Madaline's pretty dress on backwards.

Needless to say, he has redeemed himself. He pleasantly surprised me with a whole host of impromptu photos, taken late yesterday afternoon. It seems that our Mayhem Maker asked, no wait, begged, BEGGED, him to to take her outside. He caved. Of course, this is not the first time he has caved to the big, bright, blue pleading eyes of Madaline.

You can see just how cold it is and has been, just by looking at the raw redness of her cheeks. It was barely 5 degree when I left for work yesterday. The high for today is going to be 19 degrees. It's cold....very, very, very cold. But, damn, playing in all this snow we have been getting is just so much fun.

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Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Good Intentions


I had this really great wordless Wednesday post. I was actually debating between a few different photos. I really didn't know what direction I wanted to take today.

You see, I managed to take a few pictures of my napping Mayhem Maker on my last day of vacation. She looked so sweet, so innocent and so peaceful. Did I mention peaceful? I love to watch Madaline sleep. I like to marvel at the fact that my daughter who is a constant whirlwind of motion, is finally still. And quiet.

And, then the night before last, Madaline wandered into the kitchen with our camera while I was making a feeble attempt to get dinner on the table. She handed it to me, all the time saying, over and over, "'s me. Me sleepin'. At which point, I realized, she had managed to some how get to the picture viewer and was looking at the photos of herself that I had just taken the day before. It was so cute. So, after rescuing the camera from her little hands, nodded my head in agreement, and shooing her back to the living room to watch Nick Jr., I stole a quick glance at the photo log. It appears she had the camera in her little hands for a while. There were some very interesting shots - all from her little perspective. Which, after reading this post yesterday, would have fitted perfectly with my mood the last few days.

But, another thought occurred to me this morning while I was brushing my teeth, and looking at the pile of tiny hinie panties on the bathroom floor. A mole hill quickly approaching a mountain of panties that desperately needs to be thrown in the washer. I could post a pic of my Mayhem Maker posing in her big girl panties. Because, while I was home on vacation we started Potty Training. We are not overly successful, but, we are having lots of mini successes. Never mind that fact that my daughter is dreadfully skinny - her knobby knees knock together and her arms resemble twigs. She has never really had chunky thighs, porky forearms, or chipmunk cheeks just ripe for the pinching. But, still, her wearing big girl panties is a HUGE milestone for her, and it would have been nice to share - knobby knees and all.

And finally, after all those great and wonderful sharing photo ideas, and thoughts, it brings me brings me to the photo you are actually going to get. You see, as I fired up my PC and plugged my universal card reader, the first photo I saw was a picture of the deer head that graces my living room wall. I thought...OK.....maybe the hubby took some photos yesterday. Yesterday was his day off from work and he was home with Madaline all day. No big deal. He usually gets really great candid shots of Madaline. I got kind of excited to see if he had captured something that would grace the page here today. Something better than what I originally had planned on sharing. And, as I scrolled through the photos, after about 4 or 5, I was back at the photo of the deer on our wall. It seems, my darling Hubby must have either switched out the memory card in the camera, or loaded the photos I had on the memory card on to your home PC and deleted them off said memory card.

And, so, after all this talk of stillness, quiet, napping, perspective, knobby knees and milestones, the only picture, I have to share is...

My daughter and her beloved bear.

The only exciting thing about this photo - her dress is on backwards. That's right - backwards. My husband dressed yesterday. Blame him. Not me. That's right. The photos, err, the backwards dress. His fault. NOT MINE! The photos, the dress. HIS! All. His. Fault.

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